The past few months have been an extremely testing time for the majority of us. I’ve certainly been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions and I’ve really been battling with myself, my mind and the world around me.
Living through a pandemic with a mental illness has definitely been a struggle. The uncertainty and monotony surrounding each day has been unsettling. Having so much time alone and to myself has been one of the biggest challenges as I’ve spent large amounts of time in my own thoughts. Being left to untangle the mess in my mind has led me to become more anxious and more consumed with negativity.
The past few days have felt like a particularly impossible battle that I keep loosing. I’m feeling utterly defeated and have been struggling to find my purpose in life. However, I keep reminding myself that at 18 years old I have my whole life ahead of me. Yes, I’ve had a turbulent few years with some serious lows but the future is in my hands and I need to take the reigns and start creating a life that I want to live.
This change will not happen overnight, but with hard work, determination and eagerness to turn things around I hope that things will begin to improve.
From today I must start to imagine the life I want to live and begin to discover the steps I need to take to get me there. I’m still in a really low place so it won’t be easy but it’s essential that I try to do this.
I will be documenting the challenges I face throughout my journey and I hope to continue to spread awareness about mental illnesses and the devastating impacts they have on someone’s life.
Please don’t give up and hold onto hope.
B x
Being Boo 